week 3

Dear reader (meaning the great abyss that these blog entries fall into... considering the fact that probably no one reads them...),

As I get ready to start week 3 of school I sit here thinking about all of the changes that this semester has brought. Wheeww...

I am pretty frustrated with some aspects of life right now... content with some ... and pretty excited about others.

To start with, I wish that the opposite sex could just leave me alone for a while. Enough said.... Well, don't get me wrong... I am rather flattered. But let's just be friends. Yes, I may find you interesting... (on the other hand I may not)... but please... at least respect me in the process. Don't assume that you know exactly what I'm thinking and that I just can't wait to date you and marry you. "Uhhhhhhhh" (That noise shows the extent of my frustration and confusion). I dont mean to sound conceited. Because I really dont see what these guys see in me in the first place. I think that most of them just see the fact that they are getting older and soon the pick of girls will dwindle down to almost nothing... so they better get while the gettin's good. If this describes you... then don't even try. On the other hand... I think that it is possible for a guy to be very nice. And sincere. And respectable for respecting me. But who knows... guys change right? Time will tell...I guess It has a way of doing that.

I love the girls on the hall that I live with. Sooo much.

I really love ice cream.

I really love working out... too bad I never seem to have time anymore.

I am trying to take things slow. Trust God. Be patient. Follow. But it is so hard sometimes... I dont want to fall into the same mistakes again. I want to do everything better from here on out. I believe that God will open doors and close others... So why am I searching? Why am I thinking about things that I need to just not worry about? Why do I worry about tomorrow? Why do I worry about what you think? Why do I wait for a text message? Pretty stupid huh? I'm trying to not control everything.. but I guess that takes practice... when you are used to just controlling everything. It's a new concept.

I am tired... I need more sleep... why is it that I am up at 1:00 am writing a blog when I know I should be sleeping? I have to get up at 8:00am tomorrow.

Ohhh why do I do the things I do sometimes? haha... I guess it's bed time.