Time

Well tomorrow I drive to Good old Bo, Mo. Has it really already been 5 weeks?

I dont know yet if I look forward to it. I'll tell you when I leave home tomorrow. I think I'm going to go through multiple days of home sickness. lol... But at least I have activities planned for Saturday evening that will keep me company.

Time is just flyng by.... you know how I can tell? Yesterday I saw a video of Steven Curtis Chapman and his beard was gray. Haha... Well, that's not my only indication of time flying by... (that would be kind of creepy and weird if it were)... Another indication is the fact that I have found that in many situations within the last few weeks I have been patient. Yes, weird I know. Patience has never been a virtue of mine. Also, my 8 year old brother says things like "Sandra, please dont go get married and move away from us"... why he says this I do not know. My dog's joints are popping (haha... maybe TMI)... but she is getting older. My dad is starting to swerve to MISS small animals on the road. Now THAT is weird... in his youth he would have swerved to hit it. Now I am seeing this thing called compassion. I love watching HGTV. Enough said. Don't grown women like watching HGTV? But me? I'm not a woman... That is just weird. Girl - yes... female - yes... Lady - uhh.. possibly (if you can call someone as clumsy as me a "lady"... but a woman... nope.
But I guess I am growing up. It's a scary thought...

I tend to think too much about the past. The future is just too hard to grasp. I know in order to have true contentment I need to not focus on the mistakes of the past. Things that I would change... or even good times that I wish I could go back to. But I also can not focus too much on the future. If I dont stop myself I can spend so much time just thinking about what COULD happen. It's hard but I know I have to focus on here and now.

I love surprises. If I could plan my own perfect present it would be some sort of surprise. Yesterday I was thinking about how I like to plan my future down to every last detail. This completely takes the surprise out of life. I realized that God wants to give me perfect surprises through life, however, I keep taking that back from him and making it my own... planning every detail (they never really work out the way I want them to) .. completely taking what I LOVE out of life. He wants to give me what I love but I have not been letting him. I dont know if that makes much sense.

Well, on a completely different note... I am so excited because I went shopping yesterday and then saw The Blind Side... it was absolutely AMAZING. And today I am going to get some new boots! woohoo...

Anyways... love love love love. (that is my closing statement lol)
I will go back to listening to the Hannah Montana soundtrack now.