Audience of One

This is a good one ...


I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am.

And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that youve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility

And Lord as the love song

of my life is played
I have one desire to bring glory to your name

To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord

And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home

Blah (That's gibberish for my negative lethargic attitude right now).

Well
I got my computer back today. Thats good. I saw a great nature photographers gallery at the plaza. That was good. I ate a wonderful salad for lunch. That was good. I felt like my shoulders were up to my ears from being so tense from my dads driving and negative atitude (he gets like that when he is in the inner city... he goes into defense mode). That wasnt so good. I got home and felt kind of hungry but then I just didnt feel like eating. That wasnt good. I took almost an hour long shower and just thought and prayed. I know, I know... that's not what showers are for lol... but I will have to say that that was good too. I'm rather confused. That's not good. I am trying to figure out what I'm feeling. I think that when I start to feel the chance of being hurt come on I just shut down my emotions. I stop feeling. Stop thinking. Just ... stop. Back away and get into defense mode just like my dad... where no one wants to be around me because I become negative, sad, and bitter.. all because i'm scared of being hurt. That's not good. I have so much pride that I can't really admit what I'm thinking, feeling, wanting. What do I do? Uhhh.. I dont know.